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Monday, December 06, 2004

Have You Ever Seen A Tsunami That Size?

Only one more week until the stinking semester is over. I have been in mild stress mode for the last couple weeks but it really got out of hand over the weekend.

In what has become my typical fashion I was working on procrastinating on writing a paper for my environmental studies class when the tsunami hit. This is the same massive wave that hits every single time I have a paper to write. In all of my previous tsunami dreams I somehow manage to get away, but in this dream, after the moon fell into the ocean (how else do tsunamis get started?), I was debating about whether or not I had enough time to go and get my dogs. I finally decide I'm close enough to pick them up and boom, I look up and there is this HUMONGOUS, El Dorado Hills size wave about to crash down. I last remember thinking, "Oh shit. I guess it's too late." And I had a few seconds to wonder if I should even try to hold my breath and how much the water would hurt when it hit.

And then I woke up.

Thursday, December 02, 2004

So it is the final two week push until the end of the semester and I can't seem to get motivated. I can't remember when my downhill slide began specifically, but I think I can pinpoint the cause.

I think it began when I came to the realization that Significant Other (SO and who shall forever remain unnamed and did I mention Jackass with a capital J) perhaps did not feel as strongly as I did, or might have (I won't admit it damnit!). So, since then I have run almost the whole gamut of loss. What is it...Let me see.....Denial (not the river duh), sadness, anger, back to sadness, does despondent come next?

I thought picking up the old blog and bitching about it here might be the smart and cathartic thing to do. I wonder if it is working yet. Maybe I should type like another million billion words and then that will be the right recipe to help me get off my ass and study so I don't get stinking "C's" in my classes this semester. UGH!

Okay, I have said this before to those who know me best, but this time I mean it. Pay attention, here it comes...

I will not, allow anyone's desires trump my own.

Thank you.

Sunday, July 04, 2004

So, last night there was a "40 Party". As some of you may have already guessed, a "40 Party" is one in which everyone drinks 40 ounce bottles of beer, prefferably malt liquor. Started about 9 and went to about 2am.

Today it rained so no 4th of July BBQ. It has been rescheduled for tomorrow.

Instead I played cards with Kendra(one of the only people I talk to here), her friend Lizzy(who just got back from 3 months in Australia), and Kendra's brother Chris. Then we went and saw Dodgeball. It was funny in a stupid way.

Dinner tonight was going to be cabbage rolls so we opted to eat in town after the movie. I had a Philly cheese steak. Later on tonight all of us are going dancing.

More seminars tomorrow morning. We have so many seminars I wonder if I'm ever going to start taking measurements for my project. I really need to start collecting data. Anyways, our IRGA (infrared gas analyzer) just got back from the company that makes it. We got it last week (brand new) and it wouldn't work. There was a stray wire that kept shorting it out they said. Anyways, it is back and works great. So hopefully tomorrow when I'm in the seminar Jim or Knute or both of them will be out in the field putting the rest of the rings (collars), that my instrument sits on, into the ground so that the soil disturbance caused by that will calm down by the time I start collecting data. (I know, sooo boring.)

So, that is all for now. It is really humid and it sucks.

Love from the midwest.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Well, just got done square dancing. I thought I was going to get to sit out on this REALLY long song. But then the crowd started chanting,"Knute! Knute! Knute! Knute!" (Knute is my internship mentor.) Anyways, he spotted me sitting by and watching the whole thing and made me go out and dance anyways. Whoooo! It was long and crazy. We did steps with names like "Swing Your Partner", "Oyster", "Wring the Dish Rag", "Doe see Doe(or however it is spelled)", and "Seesaw(doe see doe just backwards". The live band was good and now I'm off to drink some Coor's Light from my very own fridge that I will be returning at the end of the summer.

Tomorrow is Farenheit 9/11. It is the controversial film that shows the many ways that George Bush lies while the American public sits idley by and says nothing. I'd rather have a president who uses the Oval Office for extracurricular activities than one who lies about foreign affairs. But what do I know. I only have 1/2 of a Bachelor's degree. But I digress. A group of about 30 of us are carpooling the 2 hours it will take to get to the nearest town where it is playing. Should be good times.

That is the latest from the mid-west.

Thursday, January 22, 2004

The New Year has started and my dog is dead. Mina was my beautiful, almost 6 year old German Shepherd. She was diagnosed with hemangeosarcoma 3 weeks ago. The first outward sign was bleeding from her mouth a week before that. Mina was a great spirit and a great friend. We went on many road trips together and not only did she provide me with company and a sense of security, she also taught me what it is to truly care for another living being.

I will miss my dog and remember her always.

I love you Mina.